Loved to Love

I just love The Mentalist...Patrick Jane is just *sigh* :)
So in this particular episode, Hightower, his boss who's being framed..but he's helping escape, tries to convince him to talk to someone about a new plan he has ...
he's hatched another plan to catch Red john..but this time, he was not going to let anyone
in on it..
However, Patrick would hear none of it..I'm better off alone he says
She has a response that struck a chord with me "Nobody is better off alone"

I used to think a lot like Patrick..I didn't need anybody
All people did was disappoint, betray...
I seemed happy
I lived a lie...
Truth was...I was scared...
What looked like confidence, independence, were just  facades
Walls were all they were

Father had to teach me...t'was a long arduous process..but I did learn
Man was created to be a dependent being (John 15:5)
Unconsciously, we form opinions about ourselves from outside opinions
What makes the difference is whose opinion we accept

I've come to know an unconditional, unrelenting, unchanging love
A love that comes from Someone who doesn't need anything from me
I accept His opinion...that I'm intentionally loved..I'm lovable
I'm a prized possession...I've been loved long before I loved back..
I'm  beautifully, intentionally, carefully made
All of my big head, flat nose, skinny, one-oddly-placed-dimple..lol

You can't know this Love and still be selfish..
Yea that's what I was..Selfish
I thought of just me...'how other people hurt Me'..'how they disappoint Me'

But knowing this Love, knowing that Someone else has me in His head 24/7
Someone has sleepless nights over me...Someone has me all figured out...has my life all planned out
I couldn't still keep to myself
All this 'loved' feeling I have..has to be shared...
Yea, there're still hurts...some people don't love back...
It hurts for a little while..then I'm reminded whose opinion i should be concerned about
And His love I've got
However..only a few have gone sour...I've met some pretty amazing people..found some life-colouring relationships..and they're are definitely worth taking that risk
Much happier now..

Really, nobody is better off alone