After a while...

Been such a while since my last post...a looong while...
So so much has happened..
How ironic it is that with all the drama I couldn't pen down a single word.
Been on this wild roller coaster ride...'Twas crazy!  Loss of a parent...Graduation...family 'shuffle'(more about this sometime)...youth service..
10months.filled with stories that could be spread over 10 years...
Life was,I dare say, unbearable...days unlivable...
But then, God became more than just a being to me..He was my being..and living...and waking ...my everything.
Most of those days are still a blur 'cause I just woke up in the morning and prayed night would fall..I just wanted to sleep through it all.. The hardest part was having to still do some normal activities like work on my final year project just before my graduation, move, talk to people that didn't know what was happening like nothing was happening..I mean I just wanted to yell 'Everybody stop! earth don't spin! Let me take this all in..let me get a hang of this...Let me cry'...n that I did (into my pillow though *big grin*)
Days passed slowly..night fell hard...my body grew numb...my heart cried louder...
Yet nothing seemed to let up
But through it all...there was this knowing..this assurance...this hope, that was so faint yet so firm, that 'this too will pass'..It didn't promise time frame but it kept me sane...
I barely held on...
But After a while...*smile*