I've had to clear some doubts recently...
The good thing about changing seasons in life is that your family/friend-base is tested thoroughly..few will remain...
It hurts to see people, whom you've confidently beat your chest for, just turn and leave...
More hurtful is those you've always gone to..where you've always let guards down, your own family, just change their locks, stop answering their phones...
It's hard to accept...you give excuses...
I had to accept more than a few of such shocks..I ran out of excuses... A month is time enough to return calls...new locks come with extra keys(even more nowadays)...
Then friends came through...they stuck close...they didn't change locks, for me, they didn't even close their doors..they called..
Things got better..I got better...then I started to get more calls...they wanted back in....they came with the new keys(lol)
But it was too late...I couldn't just let them back in...I fought it..made them fight for it
But my Spirit would have none of it..."You have a merciful Father..and you are His child"... So I let it go (not as easily as I made it sound though..)
But now, little fights start...they're asking "why are you talking to her first?..you should talk to me..I am your this..I am your that...when did you meet her? blood is thicker than water (err.. I know..ehen?)''...I ignore these comments the first couple of times..but I decided to speak up when my friends began to feel insecure..'maybe you should be talking to her about all these things..afterall you guys are family..i'm only a friend'
I had to let 'family' know that I see nobody as a do-or-die family member...
Those friends stood by me...they didn't bail out...they helped me stand up again..they are my blood!
My 'family' still remain family..I just added a few more members :)
